I rarely talk to myself anymore and when I do it's not some motivation or pseudo philosophy. I don't berate myself anymore, I don't coach myself anymore. For all intents and purposes I am brain-dead when I am riding. The deeper meanings behind this ride rear themselves at the end of the day when I look at the route that I took and see how far I've come.
I think of that red line that shows my route which curves and twists similar to that "–" on a tombstone between your date of birth and death that people always say is important. Because even if I try to look at this ride as sterile of the emotion and experience and culture, they will always be there waiting for me. Every day is a small victory and I do not think about this trip in the long term. That doesn't mean I don't think about what I'm doing. And when I do think about California, I get a big smile on my face.
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